Hi, i’m 17 and really like a nice christin guy (he is 20). But when I was 9 something terrible happed to me. I was a goody-good girl and my friend (who I never really like) thought because I was nice to her I like her in a loving kinda way. I didnt know anything. I felt it was wrong but she was a pasters daughter so I thought she right I’m wrong. She would use God’s word and would tell me look its right its in the bible. I told my mom but she didnt believe me. finally I told her I wasnt doing it anymore. and she left me alone for 3 months or so but she told her dad and BOY was he MAD…. at ME :/ he sat down and talk to us saying it was my falt and blaming me. I cried the whole time. I was 12. the thing is he told me this is wrong with GIRLS. true but when i was 12-13 its was not right for me and a guy to do this ether.
A young boy started to show intrest in me i thought this was okay when I was 14-15 I knew it was wrong. I was seeing that God tells us that are heart is wicked and he was telling me to lissen to my heart. I trusted God. stated reading Preparing to be a help meet. Thank God!!!
Some night I cry all night long because I wonder will anyone ever marry me? Can he for give me? How do I tell him? I not pure. Im not whole. if i ever get married and have kids I know it will be hard for me to trust any of there friends. My main ? is how do I tell him? should he know at all? should I tell him when he asks to court me or wait a while?