This is probably sort of sad, but I want to find out how to learn to trust my father. It’s a sort of tough situation for me, and I need help.
When I was younger, I was abused. I still have nightmares about it, or things related to it. I’ve had so many dreams where a man has cornered me and sexually assaulted me, and many have involved my father as that man. He’s never done anything like that and I don’t know why he’s involved in these dreams, but they have been so realistic that I don’t trust him. I just don’t. Telling him anything about in my life is such a struggle, because I see him violating me and am scared.
What do I do? It’s a really important time in my life to be able to talk to him openly, as I am being pursued by a young man whom I really like. I should be able to talk to him… when I see all my friends being completely in love with their dads and trusting them, I feel like I’m sinful for not trusting mine. I’ve told myself so many times that it was just in dreams, but my heart is frightened of him still.