I have been recently diagnosed with bi polar disorder. In case you dont know what it is.. quote, ‘Bipolar disorder is a condition in which people go back and forth between periods of a very good or irritable mood and depression. The “mood swings” between mania and depression can be very quick’.
I knew something was wrong from a very early age. One minute id be happy.. next minute depressed and by the time i was 13 i was sucidical.
I accepted the Lord at age 15 but i still have symtoms of the disorder. Infact they never went away. I take care of my health and i eat very healthy. I exercise and do all the ‘right’ things so i know there is nothing more i can do myself.
I read the book created to be his helpmeet. I desire this very much but it is impossible for me to be joyful and all these things your suppose to be with this order. I tried to practise with my dad and mum and it would work when i was normal. Once the bipolar kicked in though it was impossible to be happy because thats the point of the disorder. Anyways this has been going on for many years…
I was wondering if i should even bother marrying with this disorder?? I wouldnt be the helpmeet Debi described in her book! 🙁