I am not quite sure how to pose this question. I guess I will give a little bit of “background” first. I am 18 and living at home. I have graduated and am an only child. I have worked for a short time when I was 16/17 at a seasonal job. Once I completed that, I kept busy and didn’t really even think about finding work again, although I supposed it was something I would need to do again eventually. My dad had given me a deadline, however, that I was to try my best to find work by the end of 2012. This was because he wants me to pay for my own cellphone and internet. I did up resumes and filled out several applications without hearing a word. Since I was trying to find work, but hadn’t got anything, he extended my deadline to July.
July is not far away now and I have had a busy schedule, going to the local collage and studying for and taking my GED, as well as helping out families at church with caring for their little ones. I have a trip coming up in May and a close friend coming for an extended visit in the coming week. I have continued to apply for jobs that would be suitable to my skills and desires to have a good atmosphere to work in. No luck. Furthermore, my mom has relayed to me that my dad has firmly stated that he will not extend my deadline again, regardless of whether or not I have a job. I am in such a state of uncertainty. It is not that I am lazy or not wanting to take responsibility, but the more I think and pray about what to do if a job does not open up, the more I feel that God is telling me my place is at home. That I need to continue cultivating my homemaking skills and serving others in my church community as I have been. I could not do those things to the extent I normally would if I was working. On the other hand, I seriously doubt I could go without my phone and internet. I am certainly not addicted, but as I have no friends anywhere nearby, my phone and internet are my main way of staying in touch, as well as doing research etc… My heart is so torn. Do I honor my dad’s wishes and try even harder to find a job? Or do I heed what I feel God is telling me ( to essentially be a “mini-homemaker” ) and plead my case to my dad and ask him to continue paying for something he doesn’t want to pay for? And how should I go about either choice? My dad is a king type that can be very strong-willed, but he can also be understanding. It is sometimes hard for me to talk to him about things because I can also be strong-willed. This is one topic I’d rather not get into an argument about, yet one that needs a quick resolution. Since I believe God has shown me His will for now, I think it will not be too difficult for me to bring it up in a diplomatic and gentle way, but I do need it to fall on a tender heart. Please pray for me! I would sincerely appreciate some input to my situation. Thanks and God Bless.